Tuesday, October 16, 2012

time is still relative

November 1st.

That's when I'll meet the radiation oncologist, ask some more questions, get more information and most i mportantly - MAKE A PLAN.

This morning, I spoke to Rejeanne, the nurse who works with my medical oncologist. I must have gasped when she told me the date of my appointment because she said (and kindly),  "If Dr. Gertler thought the appointment needed to happen sooner, he would have said something."

And so I wait. November 1st is only a little over 2 weeks away. 

It feels like an eternity.

12 comments:

Louli said...

I completely understand wanting to make a plan. I often feel better when I am moving forward with the business at hand. Truth is Nov 1 is just around the corner. So make sure to write all your questions down as they come to you, and then remember to bring that sheet of paper with you on Nov 1.

Thinking of you, in planning solidarity and beating back the growls of anxiety - love C

laurie said...

Thanks Louli. November 1st really isn't that far away. It just feels that way some of the time. I just had a really fun time writing, so at the moment I feel just fine. In a few hours, I'll be anxious again. You know how it goes. xo

Blondie said...

I love you, sweetie! You are so brave and strong -- I would be a HAWT MESS and you know it!! :) I'm thinking of you and sending you much love from Iowa. XXOO

Facing Cancer Together said...

No doubt it feels like an eternity - but it's coming nevertheless, you'll get there. In the meanwhile, maybe watch tons of your favourite t.v. show, go out with friends, visit an amazing restaurant, take long walks and punch the pillow whenever necessary?

~Catherine

laurie said...

Blondie: much love back to you (and thanks). Catherine: Those are excellent suggestions. Implementing all of them.

Lene said...

I've always found it really helpful to throw a metal bowl on a tiled (or cement) floor. Makes LOTS of noise. Except it might make your Lucy nervous?

I'd offer up my life for you to plan if it'd help?

laurie said...

Lene, you are a far better planner than I am. Metal bowls don't do it for me. Things need to BREAK to be satisfying.

Karlien said...



My old landlady used to have a stack of old dishes just for the purpose of throwing on the floor in case it was needed. She was very wise...

deb said...

Hi Laurie-Have not read your blog in a while. Will keep you in my thoughts for a good outcome. BTW-I just noticed your kids were 2 and 7 at your DX, my kids were the same age at my DX.
Sending calming vibes your way,

Deb

laurie said...

Now plates, I could get behind. Did she break them often? And yes, Deb 2 and 7. They're now 9 and 14. The little one remembers nothing of the darkest times. It troubles me that my kids have almost always lived under the cloud of cancer.

deb said...

Laurie, I understand. I feel the way about my oldest. Had to take her to a dr. She mentioned my history-it was relevant and that almost broke my heart. But, we are still her to love them and kick them in the rear if needed. This side of the good green grass is preferable. (((HUGS)))

laurie said...

Deb - that is very, very true. xo