Since I was told about the appointment over the phone, I have no idea where along the channel of communication the mistake was made - as it came out of the caller's mouth, or as it went through my (increasingly sieve-like) brain. I guess it doesn't really matter, though (and next time, I will call to confirm).
I did find that it made me feel a lot better to get out of the house (both physically and mentally). Can you remind me of that next chemo cycle, please? I don't know why I am still figuring these things out.
I am still all aglow from the conference (even if I have been too tired to write about it). It was a truly supportive, joyful atmosphere, despite the shared circumstances of the women in attendance. I had been hoping to learn (and I did). I had been hoping to get a chance to talk about my book (and I did). I had been hoping to meet a few nice people (which I really did). I did not anticipate how very inspired and hopeful I would feel on my return. I am so grateful that I was able to attend.
There were some excellent sessions on practical and medical issues (I mentioned the session on nutrition in yesterday's post and I will write a post on Monday about the medical stuff) but also workshops and speakers that addressed what it means to live with cancer.
Here are some of the comments that resonated with me:
From Advanced Breast Cancer: Living With Uncertainty, a workshop led by Mary K. Hughes, a nurse who helps cancer patients cope with anxiety and depression-
- Instead of focusing exclusively on what we have lost, it is important to "find new meaning in what you can do."
- There is a difference between depression and the grief we all experience as women living with metastasis.
- People often tell us we are brave. We don't generally feel brave, just that we are doing what we need to do.
- It's hard to explain to people that we will never be "done with treatment."
- "Coping is temporary. Adapting is permanent." This is so true.
- Talking about our cancer "takes the power out of it. It's like deflating a balloon."
From Happiness In A Storm: Embracing Life Through And After Cancer, a keynote address by Dr. Wendy Harpham, MD, FACP and multiple cancer survivor, speaking about her own experiences:
- When she was first diagnosed with cancer, she had a busy practice and two kids. Cancer felt "like a storm had descended." I can really relate to that metaphor.
- A "healthy survivor" is one who gets good care and lives as fully as possible. Good health is a "wholeness of body and mind and not dependent on biology." Dr. Harpham advised us to "make your life the best it can be, whatever the circumstances."
- Minor discomforts (hello lymphedema!) can be an obstacle to happiness. She called it "the rubber band syndrome."
- Unpleasant emotions can be "the signal of a problem or the response to a problem." They can sometimes be used "in healing ways."
- "Anger and grief have a purpose."
- "It matters less what you feel than what you do with what you feel."
- "Live until you die." I know that sounds obvious but it is easy to lose sight of the living when all you can see is the illness or the ways in which your life has changed.
- Strike a balance between hope and acceptance - "hopeful acceptance."
- "Setting the stage for hope is a choice."
- "A prognosis is not a prediction."
- "Little problems have become trivial. The ordinary has become marvelous." I have written about revelling in the mundane.
- "Even the hard stuff reminds me that I am alive."
- On communicating with kids - "open the lines of communication and tell the truth. The greatest gift we can give our kids is not to protect them from the world but to give them the skills to deal with what life deals them."
The women pictured above were among the nicest I met this week end (the two at the back are from Boston - the same two women I was too shy to approach at the Chicago Airport!) the two in pink are from Orange County and I met them at the cocktail party on the first evening. And then it turned out they were all friends. They enveloped me in their little circle and it made my experience that much better.
Wow -- wish I could have been there. It sounds great!
Fantastic post as always, Laurie. I really enjoyed reading the points above. I'm also glad you were able to meet so many wonderful people. It sounds like it was a great time!
I think getting out of the house, no matter how difficult it can be, helps us more than we will ever know...
Sounds like a wonderful time.
it does indeed sound like an amazing time with amazing people
Those words are for me to live by...right now! and I don't have cancer but the sentiments resonant with me... LIVE STRONG!
I am glad you found some of your tribe!
I've been looking through your blog and see similiarities in some of the things you post. I've seen lots of blogs about metastatic cancer (mostly through the Crazy Sexy Cancer site) but it's nice to know there someone else in Ottawa. I wonder if there are others out there. I find it to be theraputic. One of your observations from the workshop is that talking about cancer takes the power out of it, like deflating a balloon. I find that writing about it does that too.
I have just returned from a visit with a friend whom I underwent breast cancer treatment with four years ago. While I am in remission, her cancer has sadly returned. My heart aches for her, as she has two small children and I feel such a sense of guilt about the difference in our outcomes, that I hardly knew what to say to her. She didn't want to talk much about it either so I have found your post very helpful in understanding what it is like to experience what you are experiencing. Thank you for posting it. http://beyondbreastcancer.wordpress.com/
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