The results are in:
My liver functions are normal. The condition of my liver has improved. There is no evidence at all of metastasis (no sign that I have cancer at all, in fact).
Why am I so surprised by this? I have had a dull ache (sometimes a sharper pain) in the area of my liver for the last couple of weeks. It's exactly where the stitch started last year, the stitch that led to the discovery that my cancer had spread. I have had moments of pure unadulterated terror, when I have thought of what it could mean.
It turns out that the pain, which I had been hoping was in my head (but knew in my heart to be real) is due to scarring. You know how scar tissue is so tight and inflexible? The scars on my liver are causing it to retract, making it sensitive.
My oncologist seemed even happier than he did back in July when I first discovered my tumours had disappeared. "It's all gone!" he crowed.
I was relieved and over-joyed but felt the need to reassure him that I was also being 'realistic' about my prognosis (the longer we can maintain the status quo the better but I do know that one day, this treatment will stop working).
But he surprised me.
He said, "Well, realistic....For some women the results of combining Herceptin and vinorelbine have been spectacular."
And then he added, "I think you might continue this way for a long, long time."
He concluded by telling my friend T. to take me out for a drink (which she did).
I did have a glass of wine. Now I am going to put my four year old to bed and then collapse out of sheer exhaustion and relief.
And tomorrow? I am going to go back to being spectacular.
I think the November curse may have been broken.