Monday, September 17, 2007

sulking

I really don't want to go to chemo tomorrow.

After two weeks off, I feel really good.

And I'm too busy for chemo.

Of course, I will go. But I don't have to be happy about it.

And I'll try to imagine the chemo zapping all the stray cancer cells, tomorrow. And then the Herceptin getting anything the chemo misses.

But tonight, I'm pissed off.

I think I'm going to go pour myself a scotch.

14 comments:

thejunkyswife said...

Cheers.

sassymonkey said...

Don't forget about your personal superhero!

Jacqueline said...

Jeanne turned me on to vodka gimlets. Tonight, I swear, I'm drinkng a gimlet on your behalf. Cheers! to sulking and embracing "pissed off". love ya, dear lady.

Lovebabz said...

Look Girl,

You have 2 more seconds to be pissed off. And then that's it. Think of it as getting your super powers re-charged. I am having a bottle of 120 Sauvignon Blanc 2006. Maybe the whole fucking bottle. So get over your pissed off self and concern yourself with kicking breast cancer ass. I have grown to enjoy your blog and I want to see it continue. So do your part Sister. I am cheering in the midst of all my drama.

pocketina said...

If I were you, I'd think about the cancer, which must be shitting itself, thinking that you're going to chemo tomorrow to destroy it some more!
:-)

(PS. I tagged you. Come to DIYnotdie and see what it's about.)
Love!

Chris said...

Reads like you have it covered - the scotch 'n' all. All those things you have to do will keep. You've got time. So drink to that. Hope to see you soon.

mom2amara said...

Will be thinking of you today.

And next time - add some good chocolate truffles with your nightcap. I hear it brings out your supernatural powers!

laurie said...

I think anger is healthy. I grew up in a house with lots of anger but I was not supposed to express mine. I think there is a big difference between being pissed off and wallowing, which I do on occasion (but not too often).
Thanks to all of you who joined me in the nightcap and next time, I will definitely add a truffle.

Lovebabz said...

Sister,
We all have our days, weeks when sulking is our very best selves at the moment. hhmm truffles, I bet I can find dairy free ones!

How are you feeling today?

laurie said...

Crappy thanks! But I know I will gradually improve over the next few days and feel pretty much like myself by Saturday.
As for the dairy free truffles, how about ones made from very dark chocolate?

Blondie said...

I hope you are feeling OK, dearest. It sucks to feel better, feel sick, feel better, feel sick. ARG! Big hugs from me (((()))))!

Ryan said...

Back in December of 2006 I was diagnosed with stage III Hodgkin's Lymphoma. I took time off from my job while I was getting slammed with ABVD chemo. During that time, I looked around for some rude and crude cancer humor shirts and just could not find any I liked.

I decided to start my own online t-shirt shop.

http://www.chucklenutshirts.com



You don't have to buy, but please spread the word.

Thanks, and best of luck to you,
Ryan

My cancer blog
http://igotthecancer.blogspot.com

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