Wednesday, August 22, 2007

chemo in photos (or how I spent my yesterday)

Chemo is administered through my portacath. It looks kind of freaky but the thing has saved me tons of grief, as chemo veins are hard little things that can be very hard to access.

The little disk I am wearing was made by a Jacqueline Skaggs, a brilliant artist, writer and breast cancer survivor. It is asymmetrically scarred (like me) and says Rebel1in8 on it. It also came with a charming little locket (I broke the chain it came with, and can't get the locket on until I buy a chain with a smaller catch). The thing has barely left my neck since it arrived in the mail.


This is what it looks like when I am all hooked up. I am very, very stoned in this picture, from the Demerol they give me to prevent a reaction to the Herceptin.


If you look closely, you can see that my eyes are little tiny pinpricks. Very shortly after this was taken, I passed out.

9 comments:

Chris said...

Free Demerol? Damn! But bless your heart, I know you would rather not have to get it for what it takes to receive it. You remain in my thoughts and prayers. You are such a strong person, and to post these pics, I know they will make some other folks feel not so all alone. I admire you more than words can convey. Hang in there, Things will be better in a while for you. To be such a giving person, you will be rewarded I know. you are truly AWESOME!!!!!!!!!!

Scarlett said...

i LOVE your necklace. I love ports too. I had a hickman but recently got a port in my arm. It's just amazing. Hope things are going well for you!

amanda said...

Ah, your photos brought back memories. I hope that you're feeling okay today.

Martha Mihaly said...

My thoughts are with you and your family. I hope you are feeling okay today, and that your boys know how very much you love them to go through with all this.

laurie said...

The free Demerol is kind of fun. :-) But the Demerol hangover, however, is not.
Welcome Scarlett! You write beautifully. You should all check out her blog.
And Amanda, Martha and Chris - thanks for checking in. I always appreciate you.

Blondie said...

Wow--that port brings back memories. Speaking of memories, I had an incredible session with my therapist the other day and we talked a LOT about my mother's cancer. I'm going to post about it this weekend and I hope you'll stop by to let me know what you think.

You are a brave soul. I did have Demerol once when I had a massive case of food poisoning and I saw purple birds flying around my head. Oof.

mom2amara said...

You look quite beautiful and put together for your day of chemo. I sat with my mother on many treatment days and I assure you there was rarely a smile on her face. Hope you're feeling good this weekend!

laurie said...

I'm blushing. Really, I just showered, threw on some clothes and went to the hospital...the Demerol does put a smile on my face (and my friend K., who was there with me).

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