Thursday, December 20, 2012

somehow, i thought

I thought it would all happen more quickly than this. I thought if I had no complications, then I would just heal.

I thought that "three days in the hospital and two weeks puttering at home" meant that by the start of the third week I would be running errands, writing, going for walks and yoga and that I would be putting this behind me.

It's not happening that way.

I am healing.

I'm just not very patient.

My head still hurts. Sometimes a lot.

I am more tired than I could have imagined.

I still feel stoned, even when I have taken nothing for the pain. My brain is just not working properly.

And my fingers don't seem to want to type what my brain tells them.

It has been three weeks since my surgery and it really doesn't feel like it was very long ago at all.

Except that I'm less patient now.

Which is probably a sign that I'm healing.

I'll get there. Of course I will.

Today, I just wish it were easier.

Monday, December 10, 2012

healing

Well it's not been linear but I definitely am healing well.

The drugs have made it hard to concentrate and type but things are progressing well. Today is the first day that my fingers and my brain seem to move more in concert.

And now I have treatment tomorrow.

So please don't worry if I don't blog. I'm doing fine - and expect to get back into regular writing next week.

Thanks so much for all the love and support from near and far.

It means more than I can say.

Thursday, December 06, 2012

please read and remember

Geneviève Bergeron
Hélène Colgan
Nathalie Croteau
Barbara Daigneault
Anne-Marie Edward
Maud Haviernick
Maryse Laganière
Maryse Leclair
Anne-Marie Lemay
Sonia Pelletier
Michèle Richard
Annie St-Arneault
Annie Turcotte
Barbara Klucznik-Widajewicz

Saturday, December 01, 2012

home!

Best news:
Clean margins. Clean MRI. Home to heal better.

Extremely tired and drugged but pain meds managing.

It was cancer. Very like original adenocarcinoma from 2006 (i.e it's breast cancer in my brain). Full pathology in a couple of weeks. 

Next treatment will be one dose of cyber knife radiation in a couple of weeks.

I have herceptin mid-December, not sure if anything will change on that front.

Writing is very hard but I am doing well.

More on whole experience soon.

Thanks to you all so much.